God is good, I am not.
I struggle a lot with how to just be. Do you know what I mean? I just want to be me. If that is different than you, that's OK. Does that mean I know more than you, no. Does that mean I am perfect, no. Does that mean that my convictions are to be yours, no.
I constantly feel like I have to reserve myself and who I am because of various reasons.
The truth is, I really love God. He is my everything. He took what was ugly and broken and made it new in my life. He has created me to be a loving, caring, compassionate person. Who loves Him and enjoys sharing that joy with others. I have to tell myself there is nothing wrong with that.
This is who I am.
You must pray and seek God for what He wants you to be.
You to be.
I love to write. I love to share what God is teaching me and what our little family is doing. But a lot of times I feel like it's wrong to share so much because of all the wonderful compliments I get.
Our worth MUST come from God alone.
Brothers, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him. It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God—that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption. Therefore, as it is written: "Let him who boasts, boast in the Lord."
1 Corinthians 1:26-31
THAT'S ME! I was the weak, I was the lowly and despised. I am who I am now, because of Christ. Because he took a terrible, terrible person and made her new; allowed her to share in His story. To God be the glory. "Let him who boasts, boast in the the Lord.
I am broken.
I am so very far from perfect. So very, very far.
I love to look for the little things in life. There is no better way to live. That is the way God made me. The children love it that I blog about our days. They love to read over the past pages and remember things. Daniel loves to read about our days. I love to look back and see how much we have grown and changed. There are so many little details I would have forgotten if it were not stored away. For these reasons I continue to write. Not to boast, not for glory. May all the glory be to God.
I just want everyone to know that I don't have it all figured out and I don't have it all together. I am just trying to get it right, just like you.
Nothing has happened. No one has made me feel this way. It is just a conviction I have. I feel as though because I am "the way" I am... (nothing short of crazy)... that people might see me as "Little Miss Perfect" or "Someone who has it all figured out"; just because I'm striving for holiness the way I feel God is calling me to.
My prayer for you and I is this:
That we are seeking the Shepherds voice; heeding His call on our lives and sharing with as many people as we can, the goodness of Him.
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